Thursday, December 16, 2010
Utterly disappointed . What are you thinking ? I don't know what I'm thinking .. My head just feels so heavy suddenly . Was everything a lie ? 16/12/2010 was a dream to me ?Or maybe every time spent with you was a dream ? Was a lie ? My CHRISTMAS PRESENT , I just wants to be happy . I don't care if she wants you back , whatsoever . I want to be happy . Heart , come on don't break so easily . Gotta be stronger , be tougher , I'M not a pushover !
Sometimes , I don't feel like continuing to live . I don't want to kill myself , I just want it all stop or go away . I want to be calm . I want to be happy again .
It's unfair how I give my everything , when the one I love would only give 20% .
Sometimes I wonder , how you can break my heart & yet I can still love you with all the tiny pieces .
What if this time , I don't say hi first ? What if this time , I don't text you back ? What if this time , I leave you wondering ? Yeah , what if this time , you're the one left feeling completely fucked over .I just wanted to tell you that I’m not mad at you even though I should be. I’d still take you back after all you put me through .
I have problems , TRUSTING people . Because I've been screwed over so many times .
How many times do we forgive someone just because we don't want to lose them , even though they don't deserve our forgiveness ?
Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from some people . If they care , they will notice and be bothered . If they don't , then you know where you stand ..
Sometimes , the person who tries to keep everyone happy , is always the most lonely person . So never leave them alone , because they will never say that they need you .
At the end of the day , you can either focus on whats tearing you apart , or whats holding you together .
Somedays . I wish I could just disappear . People tell me I’m a strong person, but they never know that I cry in the middle of the night just because I miss you.
He didn’t even notice. I haven’t gotten any text from him, not even a single hello. The feeling gets worse each day and it made me realize that I don’t mean anything to him since he treats me the same way he treats everyone else. I can’t stand it when I feel that I am never special to anyone.
I rather be hurt by your honesty then be pleased by your lies .
Do you like him ? Yes, and then not really , finally , no . Because I discovered , I must accept defeat , my heart aches suddenly wanting and longing and believing , but then not having .
Actually you have no idea what I am going through ..
So much of the world is broken , and I want to be part of its healing .
She's hurt , mentally and emotionally . But everyday , she walks outside with a smile on her face . Because that's just who she is , the girl who never stopped smiling .
He taught me how to love , but he didn't taught me how to stop .
Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand . I acted like it wasn’t a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.
She still smiles , even though her world seems crumbling into pieces . She still smiles , because she feels that its the only thing she can do best .
The most difficult phase in life is not when no one understands you . Its when you don't understand yourself .