Heal it not break it . Tyvm -'-^-^v

Hi .
Oh , its 31st december now .
3;
Please , 2011 .
Be a better year .
Although 2010 is a not so bad year .
But it can be improve c(;
Uh oh , need go back school .
>,<
Haven buy school bag , school uniforms , school shoes . ]]];
At night also dk going where yet .
Maybe watch movie and go Marina bay there ?
Hope it will be a good and fun start to the new year !

Hahs , went to BukitGombak today and my cousin come fetch me and go to amk .
Go her hse awhile le go amk hub there eat le go shopshop awhile , sian never see nice clothes .
>:
Today angry sia , afternoon .
Mummy say she forgot where my bankbook , but is she hide one lo .
Dw give me say la , no need lie to me one right ?!!
Then I shout over the phone at her , and I cry myself -.-
Too angry liao , then daddy laugh at me crying then give me 100bucks .
LOL , my tears only worth 100bucks ?!
Then mummy come home quickly , ciao arh .
Later nag me @;

Fucker nah .
Keep my things say never keep .
Liar sia .
Fuck , make me waste time finding .
I turn the house upside down I tell you .

Yo-ho <;
Accidentally fall asleep the past two days , >.<
Sorry ehyy >:
Hahs , woke up 7polus and realize too early so back to lalaland C:
10plus wake up , OH SHIT !
Prepare le then watch show until Delong coming le go school buy books (;
Bought books , funnehh laaa .
Saw Ah lien , hahaha ! He ' white leg ' .
Oh ya , must remember to tell the class on 31st dec , that those who have any leadership thing write on a paper what their duties so and so ..
Haha buy finish le go GekPoh , Delong go buy shoes .
Sad sia , Kappa the shoes no stock liao , the person say change boss O:
Sian , the shoes (Y) LOL
So he bought those cloth type , not bad also , Kappa one :D
Got buy with ah la last time , of course not bad la !
Buy le , accompany me walk home then decide go where LOL
So decided go my house prepare things for Wushu and head back to wushu later .
Keep want to peek my room .
Hahas , okay le then go take bus to his house .
@:
He make me so paiseh , ask me call his maid to open the door .
Dont know why I can't shout P:
Then go up also don't know how we use the time at first then watch a little part of Paranormal activity and his sister back , he go bath , prepare awhile .
Bused to Gekpoh .
Saw Alan and Astley , then saw Leslie and Shuhui .
Then go toilet change le go cc .
WUSHU !
D:
Boring liao , halfhearted:/
Thanks for the drink :D
After wushu , they play Maximum tune and went Mac take away food .
And walked home , farewell to Delong (:

HI :D
Today , mamafly , angry sia .
Ask mummy to give me my bank book so I can withdraw more money to spend (:
But went to bath and come out , she never give and only put 10$ on the table .
WTH LA!
Then call her why never put then she say take money from daddy , and the book inside safety box .
Tmd .
Whatever .
And my dad also not home yet .
Then after that .
Really , my piggy bank also pok liao )':
Spam call her see if she got anywhere got put money gimme !
But never listen -'- -.-
Then aiya , message cousin see where is she and go and take money from her first .
Ma de , still need lend from people , patheticdieme .
And when on train my mummy then reply , she went to Changi prison visit my small uncle .
Cannot bring phone , and the wtf thing was , she said my bank book was on the teevee .
At first say at safety box one lor ! @;
ROWAR !
Mamafly , so head to OrcardCentral with Alan , and to 313 and Centrepoint .
Lol like reflective boing-boing the three building :D
Then go *scape park there as Alan say got arcade never see until leh , and took 174 back .
(Y) Sleep until near bukitbatok there then wake up .
Tired laaa D:
Bused back home while Alan go mac find Leslie they all first .
GO back find them .
I do homework okay ?!
Omg laa , like finally do :DDD
But only do 20< questions
Mcq somemore .
Then walked to OUR house downstairs the coffeeshop buy dinner and homed .
Wahwah , today so early reach home . );
Dont like going home early ehhy .
More time for my mummy to find things to nag at me , tsktsk , not good arhh !
So watched Endless love , touching can !
Omg Onepiece haven watch yet , late night for me again .
Tmr finally going buy books , and think go gym ?
:O
Night still got WUSHU ARH !
So tired liao , still got 5 more lessons like that .
>_<

Woooosh .
I've been active updating my blog a lot this few days or weeks ehhy ?
Haha , guess next year this blog will be real dead .
Lmao .
As for today , went to fly kite with Alan in the afternoon .
Bought things to eat and head to Safra park .
Fly kite till 3plus ? Delong came .
Come le fly awhile , LOL la , the string attach to the kite break .
Hahah ! And they went to fetch the kite while leaving me a kite flying in the air .
The kite go tangle with others , paisehdieme ._.
So went off to bukitbatok to help my cousin to dye hair .
Dye hair le wash hands and went to find Delong they all .
Hilarious thing was we took 187 and reach the sec 3 camp there then I realize , the bus is going towards woodlands .
LOL .
Quickly alight le take cab to Gekpoh .
Find Shuhui<3 there and slack awhile , Alan arcade awhile and go back find her then went off to Boon lay market place with Delong .
Bused down there and walk like super long ? Then my cousins reach and say bye to Delong .
Thanks for accompanying me ! (:
Went to eat le then shop the whole boon lay place again ;/
And wanted to walk to Jp one , but my cousin lazy ! Laughs !
The was like one waiting for bus and the other and me continuing walking .
HAHA !
ANd what's more retardedly stupid was, we even ran for the bus -.-
Reached Jp like about 10plus ?
And went to arcade .
Lol topup , auntie say quick go play , 1030 closing .
Keep repeating , I was like okay ..
Hahs , play liao go find shops to shop , but today shops all so early close :x
So went Ntuc extra walkwalk , and went to find desserts .
No desserts ._.
Go 7-11 and back to fairprice to buy orea cheese cake nice one la horh .
Buy le go wait for bus for my cousin but like no bus le , so she took cab , and another cousin accompany me wait bus and homed .
:D

Weird .
So weird .
Woke up in the morning , it feels like any other days .
I don't feel anything special .
:O
I thot I will cry at the night .
No , I didn't .
I had a peaceful night .
No dreams .
Nothing .
LOL !
Good or bad ?

Veroom .
Finally , everything ended at 9plus , 26/12/2010 .
42 days of Happiness(<40%)>)Worries(20%) Anger(10%) Sadness(>25%)
Conclusion = 100% craziness :D
Although I won't say it doesn't hurt but yeah luckily I let go quite a lot . (I guess)
So doesn't hurt much .
Pheww , saved my own .
If not crying like mad now :/
HAHA .

So yeah . What a fascinating day it was .
First bused to BukitBatok around 3plus 4plus ?
Then cab down to Bugis .
Drank dragonball ! Like FINALLY ?!
Haha , but to a great disappointment , it taste normal , like sweettalk those :x
This is an example of expectations and disappointments .
LOL la .
Walkwalk at there then walked to BrasBassa .
Shop at there the popular .
Wah seyy , the popular there fucking big I swear . Keep climb up .
Got 4 or 6 floors .
Then WALK to ClarkQuay .
Actually meeting Wx , he end work at 6 .
But tmd , he go do ot .
Then what ot till 9 ._.
Tmd , ate at Brewerks and drank beer (Y)
Wth , the beer come , omg why isit black one -.-
Tmd , drink until stout .
Never see properly , cus see until write oatmeal one so thot it was healthy /;/ End up bitter la ?
Wanted to stay at there till he end work .
But till 8 jiu cannot liao , finish the foods and damn full .______.
So decided to walk to Chinatown .
Walkwalk , gosh la , should eat there .
food like so nice and cheaper .
Brewerks eat until 80$++ sia .
Hahah , so walkwalk .
And walked the whole Chinatown .
My toes feel swollen (Y) one .
And walk back to ClarkQuay .
Find him , and WTF ?
He say he work till 11plus .
But Jf need go home , cus got work next day .
So went to find a darn atm .
Make us walk the whole ClarkQuay because the nearest one doesn't withdraw money .
Wth la , so need walk to the farfar one .
And walk like crazy woman on the street laughing how retarded we are walk to and fro and to and fro .
Laughing so loud I swear , saying that we have walked so much today .
And almost sprain my leg t3wice and Jf almost trip ! LAUGH !
Finally , withdraw money then go back to the taxi stand like back to the restaurant there/:
Wait the cab till like can wait for Wx end work le .
Wasted 50mins finding atm and wait for a cab .
And finally reach home .
Saw Akira here , and LOL LA !
They going GENTING !
Ma de , make me so jealous .
Nvm , brother not at home = got two choices :D
Going Jf house in the afternoon drink liquor I guess ;) , now is 1.45am .
Nowadays I'm really like ruining my life my health .
Unhealthy lifestyle , tsktsk .
Eat unhealthy drink unhealthy sleep unhealthy .
LOL .
Okay la , gonna sleep soon le [;

Actually i've been wondering why am I so quiet with you and noisy with him ..
Maybe it's not a good one to start with .
I have no idea .
Whatever , things have past , just hope for a better future ;P
2011 please be a good one .

Heii .
Hmm , 11.11 seems meaningless/useless ehy ?
Although it come twice a day but it doesn't even make wish come true .
Rahh , mei you yong one ._.
Went YukiYaki today .
Awesome laa , the whole week .
Monday ate double Mcspicy .(Y)
Tuesday ate steamboat buffet at MarinaSquare . (Y)(Y)(Y)
Wednesday ate hmm ?
Thursday ate seafood (Y)(Y)
Friday ate steamboat.___. (Y)(Y)
Saturday ate YukiYaki buffet (Y)(Y)
Sunday ? Going bugis , wonder gonna eat what .
Rowar !
Woah , today I'm sucha goodgirl ;)
I kept quite quiet today :)
Bravo .
This Christmas , hmm un-describable .
LOL .
Exchange presents at Esplanade , hahas .
Orchard was full of people ._.
And rain approaches . Nice one .
So difficult to walk .
My blister hurt like hell can .
After picking the number for the presents , I got Shuhui's<33
She say dark chocolate nice :)
But ain't it bitter . Hahah .
My one Delong take until .
Laughs ! The note I put inside hilarious can !
Lmao .
Monday go gym ?
YES ! Go exercise ;x
No more netball training liao .
Think school reopen then can go on diet .
Waste time and can skip meals in school . :D

HAHA , plans on my mind but it just doesn't work .
How .
Hahs , I don't know why am I waiting for your first move .
And I just wait ._.
And ended up , I guess , I'm tired .
Maybe next time will try moving first hurh .
Oh ? Will there be next time ? ;/
Sigh (loudly) (':
No expectations , no disappointment .
Yeah , I need to learn new things again .
This the way to lead you to a better future .
No heartbreaks just tougher hearts .
I love lyrics .
Lalalaaah , random .

Merry Christmas everyone !
Hope you guys have a wonderful Christmas and a great ahead is waiting for you !
Lols , crap ._.
Hahahaha , damn tired -.-
Went to eat steamboat and and have a 'countdown' . LOL
Hahs ., I love kids and babies more D:
They are soo cute :D
After eating steamboat play with childrens and , yeah , slack there . Duhh .
(;
So when it was 1140 like that went to play cards . WTH
Play then never like countdown .
Actually like sounded so stupid ?
Got ppl countdown for x'mas one mehhy ? :P
But nevermind we just continue playing cards <:
And I lost pretty much .
Think I really not suitable of gambling >,<
Rowar !
So bad luck one @;
Andand ! I took the lrt and I alight at BukitPanjang and waited/ walked back and fro for like 30mins then ahfang called me and said it was at Bangkit .
:O
Then omgomgomg so paisehh , quickly board the train and go there .
Laughs .
Day ended at 2plusA.m .
Reached home , bath and sleep le .
:D

Hohoho , MerryChristmas once again !
I don't know if Christmas is a good one or bad one this year .
If its good , this year Christmas \m/ laaa .
If its bad , Fuckyou, try again next year . -'-^.^-'-

Hi peeeeeeps .
Oh , there's no one here , I've forgotten .
So saddening .
D:
HAHA !
Gosh I'm really like talking to myself ._.
Its Friday 1.241am now .
Whats more ?!
Its CHRISTMAS EVE !
Wooohoo .
Like finally Christmas , next day . :D
Went out in the afternoon , hahaha .
So funny , actually going meet 12 plus but I said it was too early end up I say meet 2pm then I 3plus then reach ;)
Proo uhh me ;]
So After buying Chocolates for my cousin went off to Artbox to buy paperbag .
And wentoff to Bugis (:
Go Bugis walkwalk le go Koi and buy MILK TEA !
The Takoyaki next door is awesome toooooo :B
But they seems to be deep frying or should I say shallow frying the Takoyaki ? ;P
Buy le and walked to Suntec HAHAHAH !
(Y) Walking is good C;
Go buy Chocolates again at Royce :D
And bought soft toys there d;
After buying , went off to find things to eat .
Actually going eat at suntec there .
But go see fish and co , like too full .
Pepperlunch still considering .
In the end we cab back to Jurong .
900+ there the coffee shop eat seafood -.-
Hahah , they ordered 2bottles of Heineken .
Woots , this week drink like twice le ?
And I drank pretty much ._.
When I know I shouldn't :\
LOL !
Want to play game one lo, but they say later people whack you ar , here is coffee shop not pub .
Then okay lor , just drink finish by vs each other .
He damn pro , his beer more than mine and finish faster than me . @;
And cab home after that .

To people who is reading this stupid blog and stay nearby my house :
Beware , it was heard that there is a molester who brings knife or weapon to molest girls . I'm not sure if he go for guys :P But yeah , beware .

Reached around 1220 ?
D:
Lack of sleep, tmr still got netball ._.
And dont know want go Bukit Panjang eat steamboat anot >:
Spare me laa , keep eating p';
Dont gain weight so fast CAN ?!
ROWAR !

As I've said in many of my previous posts , I'm just gonna go with the % you gave me . (: B'cus I've finally really understand , when I give more , when I care , the deeper cut I will get . I don't want to be like a fool anymore for now . I need to rest (: And I've said previously too , I may be your Santa . No worries / fears .(I didn't forget .) Cus all worries and fears belongs to me after all . LOL ! Lalala . When you start to care , thats when you lose out your pride . Eventually you will lose it .

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !
Yosh !
Hmm , everyday like so boring ._.
Today got WUSHU !
Wth wth laa .
So funny , I keep do wrong and got one new female instructor teach .
She keep pull pull, push push .
:O
My nerve/veins ? All like goin pichaaa like that ;\
After wushu jiu go home le x;
Hahah, tmr going buy present for Xchange present one :D
Hopefully buy something (Y) ;D

No anime watch .
D:
Hitman reborn like not nice ehhy :P
Saturday go town , tmr go cityhall .
LOL
YAY , Christmas is coming , so is the upcoming year , its so freaking near now .
Bo money this few days liao :'C
Keep spend spend spend .
OMG LAAAAAA !
Maybe need take money from bank then enough to spent :/

Do I look drunk in the picture ? ;P
Have fun with my cousins and friend . :DD
Hahaha , with them they cover me only C;
Damn good laa they all .

Haha, hmm , time passing so fast .
Growing old le DDDDD;

ohmy ohmy !
I'm freaking hellish gaining weight now !
Gosh !
Went ecp and tried DOUBLE McSpicy the previous day and ate BUFFET steamboat with fondue .
Nice one laa horh !
-.-
Gosh , now going to try my Plan A - skip meals .
Seriously I need to go for my diet , I don't to be like last time :'c
No neck one , ROWAR !
Then ..............

Anw , this few days or should I say nowadays ?
I've been so bad in fate with cabs ._.
Hopefully it will improve ehhy ? :p
Hahahs , Now is wednesday 12.35am in Singapore .
And it's Tuesday 11.35pm at there :x
Round up , it's Wednesday now :D
Another 2 more days , (:
Why time like so fast ? LOL

Omg I don't know what I'm thinking , maybe I seems to feel letting go isn't that tough compared to last time .
Hahas , so happy go lucky EHHY ?
:P

I know my hairstyle looks koooooooool ;D

Hi .
Today was tiring .
Last night , stuck at town waiting for a bloody cab .
Call cab , fully booked . (Y)
Clark quay , the restaurant- Brewerks << \m/
Drank beer , lol ._. The wine expensive , I suppose .
Lol , drank MadBeeAle << ???
Taste okok only , hahah .
Next time they gonna bring me to somewhere else :)
This night , stuck at bedok/marine drive ? For cab also .
Nice one , call cab also waste time .
Damn tired , and I only like slept for awhile , got headache and morning got netball .
.___. So tired .
Hahs , he went overseas for 5 days .
Something's on my mind , couldn't pluck it off my mind .
Ohh man .

I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence . I'm easily influence .

Okay , since , I'm easily influence .
I should be able to go with your % you gave it to me .
I shall not love you that much , you've hurt me enough .
I just want to say : Hey , enough , we should put it a stop .
But I don't have the courage , I'm afraid I will regret it like other people .
I don't want to do things I regret .
Unless you ask for the break up , absolutely, I will be fine with it .

God,sparemeforsayingI'mfine.
Whiteliesarealright, yeah ?
Don'tturnmynoselongalrighttttt? Thankyou .

I feel like , want to ruin my own life .
But thinking about it , I don't have to because of this , to ruin my life .
Yeah ?
So , alright .
Bet no one is reading , cus people doesn't know or even remember I kept this blog alive .
Secrets .

Ohh , you want him back badly ?
Maybe I'm going to be your santa then ;')
I knew you was goin to post , how could you not post on the 19TH .
HAHA .
How evil .
You even posted on the 14th that you want him as Christmas present .
Goodluck,your wish is highly to come true , no fears .

I must act like a bad guy .
That's the only choice .

My mommy just told me to share my stuffs with some UNFORTUNATE KIDS, awwwwww. Ain't i too caring? (: I have many stuffs here, take your time and pick. I'll be more than willing to share some love with chiu! What's more, i won't hate you.

Things are just getting way too sucky ,
what can you expect from a crybaby .
I only knows how to cry , that's the only thing I kept doing .
Even though I know it don't work .
The last time I cried so hardly was 2hrs flow .
This time , I cried alone , loneliness came upon me , crying till there's no more tears out .
What's next ?
Blood coming out from my eyes the next time ?
Ohh come on ..

What do you want exactly ?
I'm not a spare tire , okay ?

Gosh , I just don't know what I'm talking .

Utterly disappointed . What are you thinking ? I don't know what I'm thinking .. My head just feels so heavy suddenly . Was everything a lie ? 16/12/2010 was a dream to me ?Or maybe every time spent with you was a dream ? Was a lie ? My CHRISTMAS PRESENT , I just wants to be happy . I don't care if she wants you back , whatsoever . I want to be happy . Heart , come on don't break so easily . Gotta be stronger , be tougher , I'M not a pushover !

Sometimes , I don't feel like continuing to live . I don't want to kill myself , I just want it all stop or go away . I want to be calm . I want to be happy again .

It's unfair how I give my everything , when the one I love would only give 20% .
Sometimes I wonder , how you can break my heart & yet I can still love you with all the tiny pieces .

What if this time , I don't say hi first ? What if this time , I don't text you back ? What if this time , I leave you wondering ? Yeah , what if this time , you're the one left feeling completely fucked over .

I just wanted to tell you that I’m not mad at you even though I should be. I’d still take you back after all you put me through .

I have problems , TRUSTING people . Because I've been screwed over so many times .

How many times do we forgive someone just because we don't want to lose them , even though they don't deserve our forgiveness ?

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from some people . If they care , they will notice and be bothered . If they don't , then you know where you stand ..

Sometimes , the person who tries to keep everyone happy , is always the most lonely person . So never leave them alone , because they will never say that they need you .

At the end of the day , you can either focus on whats tearing you apart , or whats holding you together .

Somedays . I wish I could just disappear .

People tell me I’m a strong person, but they never know that I cry in the middle of the night just because I miss you.

He didn’t even notice. I haven’t gotten any text from him, not even a single hello. The feeling gets worse each day and it made me realize that I don’t mean anything to him since he treats me the same way he treats everyone else. I can’t stand it when I feel that I am never special to anyone.

I rather be hurt by your honesty then be pleased by your lies .

Do you like him ? Yes, and then not really , finally , no . Because I discovered , I must accept defeat , my heart aches suddenly wanting and longing and believing , but then not having .

Actually you have no idea what I am going through ..

So much of the world is broken , and I want to be part of its healing .

She's hurt , mentally and emotionally . But everyday , she walks outside with a smile on her face . Because that's just who she is , the girl who never stopped smiling .

He taught me how to love , but he didn't taught me how to stop .

We all carry these things inside that no one else can see .
They hold us down as anchors , they drown us out at sea .

Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand .

I acted like it wasn’t a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.

She still smiles , even though her world seems crumbling into pieces . She still smiles , because she feels that its the only thing she can do best .

The most difficult phase in life is not when no one understands you . Its when you don't understand yourself .

Ahh well ..
Whats up ?
Whats up again..

Why am I always being hurt again and again .
Is this my life ?
Being hurt is the only thing why I am born to this planet ?
D:
Fuck my life then .

Someone, just someone , pull me out of the floods of my tears ._.
Damn it .
Its a happy day , but maybe things shouldn't be too good .
It always end badly , especially for me .
So yeah ?
My life's so great hurh ?

This time I can't let my mummy knows about how sucky my life is .
She's definitely gonna just say serve me right , and lock my freedom .
No freedom = can go die ._.

I hate crying , cus' it blocks my nose and I cant breathe right , feels like I'm really dying .
I hate crying , I know crying does not help , but it just keep flowing .

I've told you things , but what have you really told me about ?
Are you just trying to please back me to make me happy ?
This isnt making me happy if I knew everything , it just simply make me sad in a more faster way ..
You're hurting me , in every way , just that you didnt realize .
Its just too hard for me to say .
I've always cover it up , just to let things peace down a little .
I thot everything would be fine after a moment .
I put trust in that .
I put time in that .
In return , it gaves me such a heartbreaking effect , cool or what ?

chatter

My mommy just told me to share my stuffs with some UNFORTUNATE KIDS, awwwwww. Ain't i too caring? (: I have many stuffs here, take your time and pick. I'll be more than willing to share some love with chiu! What's more, i won't hate you.

I just wanted to tell you that I’m not mad at you even though I should be. I’d still take you back after all you put me through .

People tell me I’m a strong person, but they never know that I cry in the middle of the night just because I miss you.

We all carry these things inside that no one else can see .They hold us down as anchors , they drown us out at sea .

I acted like it wasn’t a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart.

We all carry these things inside that no one else can see .
They hold us down as anchors , they drown us out at sea .